Woah...
Cant wait for tmr to come, its TetraHeroes' ever 1st guild outing, we'll be gathering at suntec for breakfast, movie and stuff... Will be passing them their very very late xmas present haha =) God Bless Wen Hui getting a Edusave Scholarship tmr oso haha...
Juz posting a pic of a piano score online so whever i go i can get it !!!!
CRUCIFIED at 1:48 AM
Im backkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!
its been a longggggggg time since i did an update ^^, got so many pics wanna post so many things wanna say, but whenever ii look at my blog, makes me feel sad hahaha, my com's crashed so i cant do much updates recently, juz some interesting events which happened recently, my granny promised me my driving license next year if we move house =D hahahaha, right now its a tough time to try and sell MOL tickets or to get frens to come, now i got like 10 frens coming nia, my faith goal was 20 haha............
My granny's younger brother passed away, God does things in an interesting manner, he died peacefully sitting by the roadside, apparently he was walking to the market, felt tired, sat at the roadside and went to heaven, YIPPPPEEEEE!!!! Praise the Lord, lol, not laughing at his death but God sure does things in an interesting way and stopped his sufferings of his heart problems...
Celebrated Guo Wei's bday a few weeks back, missed Keelin's one as he was stucked in camp, missed Yi Long's one as I really had to rush assignments out and their location were too way out, and who's next !!!!!
Finally a comeback to school, been back to school recently, coping wif all the work i missed, coping on catching up wif the class, especially Hong Yao, Kai Xiong, Wee Keat, Ivan, Jie Yu, etc.etc.
Well, the 1st step I am doing to make a comeback to class is by doing more than my part as a team member and organising Character Development module's community project for more than half of the class, heh heh how will that do?
Well then, recently I have been practising speaking tongues during quiet time, hahahha...
So many things i wanna buy, keyboard, PS3, external harddisk...etc...etc....
For sometime now, I have been thinking and asking God, what can I do to help make this world a better place, then I browsed thru my monthly PlayWorks magazine, guess what I stopped at a page about this CosPlayer and gamer girl section, then i went to lie on my bed and stone....
Then something came into my head, or more probably someone talked to me... Juz then flashes of 3 things appeared in my head, me playing keyboard, me playing games, me creating costumes for cosplay...
Haha, then I went on and on and on thinking for the next hour or so, perhaps God wants me to extend in these areas, surprisingly i did not tell anyone about my friend in tokyo going for MOL, Cher Wu you are the best lol, i asked u go and u went? lol amazing.... well back to where i was, yea firstly i muz be stable in my studies, make time to learn piano, make time to well... play games, do e-mentoring and make time to get started on cosplaying ( well have to slim down 1st !!!!!) lol, Guavas and apples for lunch dinner =D
Well i need a change of blogskin to spice things up, and perhaps some interesting post =D
Tata for now =D
CRUCIFIED at 11:08 AM
Long lost friend... feeling empty...
A week ago Joshua called me out to catch up, wah its been a long time since the good old days at Kim Seng Plaza playing Lan all day long hahaha...
Met him at stadium then decided to go depot road find Seng Ho since he was opening the pool shop today, its the 1st time I played pool wif Joshua, wah he is super pro... my winning ratio to his? 1:9 lol, the 1 time won he oso let me de hahaha... then saw a couple of friends who usually hang out at Kim Seng Plaza pool in the past, its amazing to see how much people have changed since then... including me lol.
Then lata on I got a phonecall from nick and I knew I was late for cell hehehe... Cannot make it a habit la, always late for anything and lata taking cab... lolx
Cell today was great... we sang some very great and wonderful songs... during worship time, I juz fell on my knees on a sudden and started to think, more like reflect what has been happening and what I can do to carry on wif life haha, all the grudges all the problems that made me very unhappy all this time... its not easy to change after all that had happen but well... I need to try for the better =D After cell Nick gave me a present, a Paradise:Set Me Free worship CD, thx alot =D
Then we went mac, its amazing how wonders can be done wif coupons lol, 1st time came back from mac wif so many things only for 7$ but in the end couldn't finish...
Then came band practice... I was full of hope of learning some basics of the piano... Really Really Really wanting to learn but hey they were practising, I couldn't juz go in and take over the piano... nvm... even Jimmy was helping with the practice by singing... haiz... I feel so useless... so stupid... I was walking around aimlessly hoping someone would even notice me lol, Nick, Chris, Jimmy, Gabriel did approach me, they asked me some questions and I juz gave a fake smile and they left hahax... then I sat there... A min there would be like forever... lol I even had the word "Loner" stamped on my forehead yet there isn't anything that could be done... I juz don't like ppl inviting me to join their activities becos I showed the "lonely" expression... thats like pitying or sympathizing me lol... Every min there seems like forever... Its not that I don't want to join in, but whenever I try to do anything, I'm getting ignored many atimes... I'm getting sick of this... then there was this sudden rush of sadness and grieve... I dunno why oso, I juz felt like wanting to cry, letting everything out, let of steam... but hey thats my spiritual family... I can't abuse them lol... Only til at home while lying on the bed then I could tear a lil hahaha...
Im getting too emo le... But I mean why is this happening to me? Why me? I'm getting ignored by schoolmates, classmates, friends and even now my spiritual family... sry to vent it all out here but this is how I am thinking now... GRRRRRRRRRRRR... looks like I'm returning back to being the old Sam... the lonely one, living in his own world, perhaps a game world =D lol thats escaping reality and I know it... I can't stand it further getting ignored... getting unnoticed... I really want to be a person of influence... leaving wif people a good and unforgetable expression of me...
I feel like crying... really crying... I don't understand why during service I don't cry and let it out, but whenever im alone... I will hide in a corner and weep silently... As I have said I wanna be the main character of my story, and other's too... not juz an extra which doesn't be needed at all... I feel really stupid right now typing all these out... I dunno what to do... I don't have that values in me... Its now right... Im feeling stressed right now... hope it doesn't affect my studies...
Maybe I do have to learn bah... Learn to adapt...
Being a loner is what I used to be.... Forever I will remain as one....
CRUCIFIED at 11:41 PM
Thoughts again...
I have been thinking abt some things again haha...
I juz dyed my hair a few days back and I think its kinda nice =D.jpg)
It been a long time since I uploaded some pics, here are some I missed out way back..jpg)
This pic was taken during bbq weeks back to celebrate Wendy's and Jimmy's bday, starting from left is Wendy, Dylan and QQ Jie =D Jimmy not in pic, the image is a lil blur lol.jpg)
This is the bday card Jun Kai and Jun Yang gave me, notice they mention mostly on games =P, but the drawings are very nice and cute haha thx =D.jpg)
This 2 dogs was caught from the machine on Teachers' Day when we went out after going back to sec sch, not easy hor.jpg)
First time I see ppl cut cake like that.....jpg)
Here is the Planet Shakers Ultraviolet concert I attended which was held at FCBC at expo ^^.jpg)
lol 3 of a kind, got 2 of each type of handphone except the large motorola one in the mid =P
Here are some MVs I should share, its 2 Kingdom Hearts MV wif 2 different songs, Complicated by Avril Lavinge and Listen to your heart by DHT
CRUCIFIED at 10:07 AM
A sad person behind a happy face...
Today went out to Bugis eat steamboat with Shawn,Winne,QQ jie and Dylan. Superb man the steamboat there, was very nice and filling, Dylan is so funny, he kept on playing a fool wif the waitors and waitresses there =D
During this time, many problems were solved and Dylan assured me of many things that happen in life, Dylan sure is a caring father-like figure, he is so nice and funny, wish I got a god dad like him haha
After steamboat we went to TCC to have some coffee, during the order, Dylan kept on joking wif the waitress, so funny haha, I wan teh tarik, dun have arh? Make it Kopi O siu tai, dun have arh? Teh O leh? haha so funny la him, he even made the waitor stand there to let him inspect the chocolate milkshake see if it is of good quality lol, I got myself a raisin milkshake and warm vanilla bread pudding, yum yum ^^
Meanwhile, Piggy(Weiting) and Shawn(another shawn) joined us haha, it was really good to have them around, was nice chatting with them, Dylan kept staring at weiting lol make her hide behind Big Shawn's back, haha so funny
Come to think of it, I know about piggy the least amongst all the friends, perhaps must ask her out more often haha =D Only then can we be good buddies haha, I really hope that I can be like a brother like Shawn is to her ^^
I pray that God will help her stay strong and happy always =D
After today I found out many things are cleared from my head, really appreciate Dylan for talking to me, I also wanna thank Chris Tan and Nick for talking to me too, really needed some reaffirmation =D
CRUCIFIED at 1:15 AM
Im sooooo relieved and glad...
Today I went to New Creation Church which moved to Singapore Indoor Stadium for a week due to the IMF thingy hahahaha... I hope Dylan is not having a tough time in there, sooo many police vehicles ^^
Joshen tot the doors would open at 7.30, we reached there like around 8.15 and found out the doors open at 9, wahhhh long wait, service started at 10, was quite nice, Pastor Prince preaching was good, his tone was kind and friendly, I really could absorb and understand what he was preaching, its really good to know that I could find the topic which he preaches on pretty useful and able to let me know more about Jesus =D
OMG!! He also can sing, lol, today the keyboardist Karen wrote a song for one of the vocalist to sing which was dedicated to the South African friends who visited, the song was quite nice and soothing, what a great song writer she is =D Well pretty much happened today was really nice and good, except I didnt go for FCBC youth service today, but hey still got chance de, I'm intending to go New Creation again next week, can't wait to go back ^^ and also I'm changing blogskin soon, perhaps a rumbling hearts one
CRUCIFIED at 4:49 PM
The Thing About Thinking....
haha, yea thinking too much ain't good, really...
I happen to visit Jimmy's blog, saw annoymous tagged at his blog, I do agree yea, he thinks too much, so have I...
Jun Kai sent me a song, from the anime Tsubasa Chronicles, You Are My Love(Sakura Version), it brought me back to time where I was escaping reality, playing games to spend time, the games I played, namely Final Fantasy, the feeling while I played it, the feelings of the characters, the game that changed my way of thinking forever, yea a game could be that good... the thing that struck me the most, not the fun elements, but the story and mainly the ending... The meeting of the 2 were inevitable, so this is enishi, the ending was incredibly touching and nice, I was very inspired by that then... SquareSoft = Where My Dream Job Would Be, haha
Very much I would like to have been a scriptwriter, an animator, mainly the character, haha how nice it would be, a fantasy world, but thats = escaping from reality, perhaps daydreaming of it would be nice =D
I want to take up piano!!!! Who can teach me!!!! Any Piano Teachers who can charge cheap, haha, I wanna compose songs wif the piano, heck wif guitar, violin and flute, I want piano!!!! After seeing and hearing how those FF composers compose the music, Im soooo envy of them...
Yesterday, BBQ at Shawn's house was great, will post up some pics soon, was really nice, got 2 pics, well almost the same, wif Jimmy, Wendy and Winnie's colleague's daughter cutting bday cake =D
oh my its 2am now, enuff wif blabbling, tata sayonara ^^
CRUCIFIED at 1:35 AM
God...You there? Plz Answer....
Recently alot has been going thru my mind, I have read a close friend's blog recently, she mentioned abt having suicide thoughts and about fading away from God too, lol why is this happening? Is the 3rd wave striking us already?
Haha I have been thru many ppl's blog recently and found Jimmy's blog to be soooo holy, yea a lil too holy thinking abt him and God all the time =D
I wonder why is so many ppl clinging on to God and loving him so dearly, maybe I have not experienced much of his Great presense yet, but I'm looking forward to the day it arrives, this coming saturday got bbq at shawn's house, can't wait
Many a times when going out wif frens, I feel like I'm the extra one, the one everyone doesn't notice, maybe I lack other's attention, but come to think of it, sometimes to attract attention, I act like a jester... yes... a clown... How do I become the main character in any story, especially my story, I wonder... I seem to be attending to many people but having no one to attend to me, well thats how I feel, must I do something so big so that everyone realises me? For who I am? I think theres much more to what I can be, perhaps someday, people would recognise me, not as an extra, but as a main character, how do I create that image in everyone's mind?
Shoo me... Decieve me... Kill me...
CRUCIFIED at 11:09 PM
A person who has died....
Ahh heck my previous post, it was done in rashnes. So as all of us know, the great Croc Hunter Steve Irwin, has died in an accident by when a stingray pierced his heart, someone intro me this tribute to him and I think it is worth a look, http://www.break.com/index/steve_irwin_tribute.html , He was a good guy, yea most probably catching crocs in heaven now wif Jesus ^^
I wonder if a day were to come to me like this, would anyone make a tribute for me haha, he had made an impact in millions of hearts, and dear Lord plz bless him in heaven, haha he was a good guy, how do I make an impact in others heart like he did? Was it his passion, his determination, his happy nature?
Well who knows?
Perhaps I juz need the special X factor haha =D
CRUCIFIED at 10:58 PM
Cruel World....
I nvr tot this period of sadness and greif would eventually come to me haha.......
After the events today, im thinking of giving up everything, anything..........
I am the source to my parents' quarrels, grandparents' sadness, sibling rivalry, others grieving, e.g. Andrew and others.... If I did not exist, won't the world be a better place, for anyone and everyone? God brought me to this world for this? haha.... Im calling out for help, is anyone listening? Will anyone listen? In my deepest darkness moment, God was there, wasn't he? Yea, he did helped me, but slowly slowly im fading away..... Going Going Gone...... Maybe its juz me =D, haha i nvr tot that this day would come, when im going to let go, will God come recieve me now? soon? God or will I go to you? Thanks frens for all you've done, I have tasted rejection, comdemnation, deception throughout all my schooling life.... Thx Jeremy Tang and Yao Zhong and gang for letting me know how cruel life could be, so I'm better prepared =D If I was not here, my sister would be the only child, being focused on, being successful, being happy, If I was not here, my grandparents would be enjoying life now ^^... Why muz i recieve this Enishi.... God Come Take Me Soon, Please Im Begging You, Its such a cruel world..... Im the one who can make the world a better place by not existing..... Thank You......
CRUCIFIED at 5:47 PM
Real Emotions....
Haha ^ the title is somewhat related to the song sung by Koda Kumi, nvr been posting much due to upcoming exams, yea, that day de Planet Shakers Concert was good^^, oh boy, sure we did enjoy ourselves, brought Carol along to the concert, hope she enjoyed it ^^, arghhhhh, during this exam period, I have been hearing so many emo songs lol, for example Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx, When You Believe by Mariah Carey and Whitney Houston, Here are the lyrics of Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx =D
Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Well then talking about emotions, yea the way I have been doing things recently have shown that my emotions are taking care of things (especially after listening to those emo songs), for some reasons, I keep getting emo about things, small things, dunno whats going wrong, all of a sudden I have been watching those Romance anime such as Aoi Yori Aoshi, Rumbling Hearts, Mahoraba, Rec, haha I dunno whats happening thou, perhaps Im juz starting to think about things all over again, haha, I juz think too much, too too much, letting my emotions have the better of me^^, perhaps perhaps after one day after I lose this low self-esteemed attitude, will I be able to do things out of my boundaries, I have been not changed much, not much, Im always still thinking, not confident, finding myself such a inferior being compared to others, haha making myself sound so low....
Well then perhaps, perhaps, perhaps..... One Day... No... Soon... Will I be able to step out and shine... To think I have everything? Nah I dun have the faith and confidence in myself... Perhaps.... One Day.... Why Not?.... Soon... Maybe....
CRUCIFIED at 9:44 PM
I'll Be Back ^^ Stressed Out... Let go....
Well well well... long time since i post le... been really busy with many things and problems recently, wanted to blog but no time to do so lol.
Last Friday, went out wif Jenn, Daphne, Daryl and Ivan to Orchard Road.
Haha i got myself a Best of Koda Kumi Season 2 CD, really wanted the Cd for a long time, to all Koda Kumi fans out there, D.D.D feat SoulHead is a good song, u really should listen to that =D
Well it was my 1st time really going shopping and looking for nice stuff haha, window-shopping =P, it was rather nice going out wif them bah haha.
Anyway Planet Shakers will be coming to expo and Im going for the concert next Friday!!!!!! Will post some pics =D
But b4 enjoying, haizzzz... here are the exams... having so many exams together really can stress a person out... well I guess I'm gonna have a restless nice again tonite... Studies!!!!! haha God plz Bless Me wif a good memory of the theory and practicals of the topics =D
Well I think this will be the last time I will be posting until the day when Planet Shakers Shake the Planet!!!!!!
Anyway I think I will be going off to study now... Tata... God Bless!!! ^^
CRUCIFIED at 7:33 PM
Plz have Faith in the Lord, Plz have Trust in me....
Sometimes, come to think of it, many ppl are suffering but keeping it to themselves, keeping to themselves juz cause them to think about it more, in result, leading to hatred and suffering... Sometimes, letting it all out, letting the person know, letting the matter rest, forgive and forgetting is juz the way out... Yea, easily said, many ppl juz cant do that, that includes me...
Seeing people suffering silently and keeping to themselves, especially my family and frens, really do make my heart hurt... Why won't they let it out, Im oso figuring why, maybe its juz that some of us cant find our identity in things we do, maybe we juz lack the care and love of a family, maybe we juz cant show our concernto the people close to us, especially friends, well then im juz writing my thoughts out here, isn't it a better place if everyone were to communicate like a family? Well then a family is where we all enjoy the time together, the time we spent doing things together, sharing our troubles and worries, thoughts and concern, helping one another in times of needs, it really shows that hey, this is true friendship, well then I really appreciate from the bottom of my heart that leonard did a tribute to the family, of cos im included, see the happy times we all had spent together, enjoying all of them =D
Heres the tribute done by Leonard, thx bro for doing this^^
So I guess I will be doing my best, my very best to make this world a better place for everyone, well those close to me and of cos not close to me^^
CRUCIFIED at 7:47 PM
Videos...
Videos i think i should share =D for a good laugh
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CRUCIFIED at 8:56 AM
Videos...
Videos i think i should share =D for a good laugh
CRUCIFIED at 8:56 AM
A good fren's bday
Great Chefs in making Part 1
Nice bday cake =P
Annabel: Para Para Sakura!!!
WOW!!! Whats that!?!
Group pic, Tian Shi says: BANG!
Shes 18 and shes popping the cork of a wine bottle, lol guess not, its sparkling juice.
Today is Natalie's birthday haha, it was quite fun at Chris' house today, really good... at 1+ going 2, the girls arrived to cook lunch for everyone, was really good, Leonard cooked 2 dishes haha and Guo Wei did a great help with the omelettes, he did help alot by pouring the oil ^^... I wrote my blessings for Nat for her 18th birthday on a bday card =D, when the time arrived for the cake to be cut, we did something very funny, we took kaya toasts wif a candle placed on top saying that was her bday cake, we made Nat close her eyes and make a wish and then replace the kaya toasts wif a big nice bday cake haha so funny, then she greedy close her eyes wish for a bigger cake, we replace the cake wif the kaya toasts lol, yes we all had a happy time there, but there was something amissed, more like someone close to us missing and not there for the occation
=(...
Alrite I would like to write my testimony about the Encounter camp I attended ^^ I felt that God has really blessed me wif many things and I have to appreciate them, but something during the ministry of the Cross struck me, as I mentioned b4, it prompt me about what I want in life and what to do about it, well then I guess I really had to clear my thoughts about my happy-go-lucky type of attitude and really need to get down to do things and make an effort... God did bless me wif something, which is more wisdom, I think I gotten wiser =D muahahah... During the Encounter camp I did learn to cope with many issues Ps Yong Howe and Ps Victor and Ps Kelly had told us about... I really did felt the great presence of God during Ministry time and really felt lighter by it ^^
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CRUCIFIED at 11:37 PM
Scripts ready...Camera...lights...action...
haha its been a long time since I have posted... juz thinking about many things nowadays, cant really do much of anything... I'm juz lost, confused, thinking, awed, amazed, sad, happy all at the same time...
Encounter was really wonderful, lasted last friday til sunday... something struck me at the ministry of the cross, it prompted me to think, hey Sam, what are you gonna do with your life, dun waste it life's precious... I really have been thinking... what I want in life... what I wanna do in life... who are the ones really there and will be carrying on wif me thru life... how I wanna serve God in life...
A dear and wonderful brother of mine ( name cannot be mentioned), is going thru some difficult times now... he's leaving us... Suddenly I can feel this sadness, confusion and pain going thru my heart, as if I had lost a dear person, it will be a huge difference without him there, without him doing things wif us, it will be different...
Ok wif some happy moments now... Attended Chris' graduation at NUS today, wow NUS campus sure is huge, manage to find my way there... Took quite a few pics there, I got really clinged onto the tortoise soft toy Joy gave Chris as a present for his graduation... Really liked that turtle... soooo cuddly and cute... haha, I'll post some pics soon =D
YoHoHo and a bottle of rum... Yes! Jack Sparrow is back to entertain us, Johnny Depps, wonderful actor, is starring in Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest... muahahaha
Alrite then, will go deeper into these topics soon, will post some pics too, have fun and peace^^
CRUCIFIED at 10:53 PM
Revealing my destiny....
Where hopes and dreams come true, believe in him!!!! haha
I had realised i did very badly for my recent exams... not due to gaming but due to not concentrating harder in class... i will study harder...
CRUCIFIED at 10:37 PM
Renewed....^^ =D
Well off with the negative things and heres some happy things that happened....
haha heres the 7 Flowers (withered le) hahaha...
When the wise man speaks, all gets serious... including Chris haha...
Wah two big smiles... teeth so white haha... shiny...
haha look at Alvin attempting to cut Kelly's hair and his expression...
CRUCIFIED at 8:04 PM
Destroying one's self...
Its been a long time since I post haha...
I juz cant keep up wif the standards of the exams, I dun know why, why am I lagging behind... so far away... I need to catch up haha....
Since school reopened, I always have this sense of peace in my heart... feeling peaceful, not letting the outer world get the better of me...
Seeing ppl destroying themselves slowly... I feel sad for them... Why do they wanna destroy themselves? ^^ I dun know why too haha... I have seen many ppl having good and new frens in poly wif a new start, sometimes I wonder, why am i so special? Why do i not have a sense of belonging there...? Why could not I have some friends that can really share my happiness and pains together... haha perhaps i ask too much... As I walked I used to ponder about this things... hey hey I have friends who are very dear to me... They hear me out and help me out... Bless God and Thank God for them...
Have I joined the wrong group of peers or what? Haha... Sometimes seeing at Annabel's class makes me jealous... all so close and nice to each other haha...Why cant mine be the same haha... Sry for hearing me spill my rubbish out... juz needed to get them out of my mind... Smoking, drinking, what good does those have? Coolness, new experience? Nah plain rubbish... Everyone's changing eh? Two paths... Good or bad... Its been 3 weeks and I have seen massive changes in the behaviour of friends... 3 weeks is all is needed to change them... Staying away from them? Finding a new group of peers? Sometimes acting hypocrite and supposely having fun hanging out wif them is good, but that doesn't solve the problem haha... what should I do?
CRUCIFIED at 9:56 PM
Blessed wif friends...
This few days really are happy days and will be kept as happy memories for times to come... =D
Yesterday, after church service, I brought my church family and my friends down to my granny's place to have dinner... I recieved a birthday card from Jun Kai and Jun Yang haha, nice card... Chris bought the I Not Stupid 2 VCD for me, i find the show very meaningful... Rachel, Jun Kai and Jimmy was constantly hogging the computer for O2 Jam haha...We all ate and had fun haha, really thank you u all for coming...
Well today is a pretty nice day too haha, Shawn asked me out to go play a few games at Queenstown Stadium, my usual hideout to be haha..
Then we went to parkmall near Plaza Singapura, the Fish & Co to have dinner, Andrew, Rachel and Xue Min went wif me and Shawn to dinner, woah the seafood platter for one sure is filling and nice, I really appreciate Shawn bringing me there, then Xue Min and Andrew went off first, Shawn, Rachel and I sat down at starbucks wif a cup of hot chocolate and chat haha, was really nice chatting wif them...
"I always talked about you, Friends... How you were a very special person to us because you taught us how important life is. You taught me that life doesn't last forever, that's why we have to help each other and live life to the fullest. Even if you say good bye, you'll always be in our hearts so I know we're not alone anymore. Why I was born... How I wanted to live... Thanks for giving me time to think...
To keep doing what you set your heart on... It's a very hard thing to do. We were all so courageous... What to do when I felt lonely... That was the only thing you couldn't teach me, but we need to figure out the answer for ourselves. I'm so happy I met everyone.. I wish we could've gone on more adventures... but I guess we all have to say good bye some day. Everyone... thank you. farewell... My memories will be a part of the sky... It's been so long... I can't wait to see everyone... but it won't be the same... I've got to let go off the past... I've got to move on..."
CRUCIFIED at 11:13 PM
Hey there... Give me a smile... Everything's gonna be alright...
Today is a very typical day out with friends ^^ I tot i was gonna go swimming today alone, but then Jun Kai called and asked me out to go watch The Omen with Carol and Joshen =D
Oh boy, Joshen sure grew quite a bit =P Dun Ever Ever Watch The Omen, PLZ NO ITS A WASTE OF YOUR MONEY!!!!! Well the begginning and the middle was quite nice but... the ending... it really makes u sian 1/2 lor.... the devil child should've died but he ended up alive in the end... the main actor went through so much trouble learning to how to kill the boy but in the end he got killed... wah sian la sian la..... ^^
Haha after that we went to BK sat down chat for a long time and then bought something to eat b4 going home... =D
I just can't wait for friday to come lolx, happy excited^^
Dear Lord, Bless Me and Enlarge my territory ^^!!!!!!
The Jabez Prayer =X
CRUCIFIED at 12:24 AM
I Love You... I Need You...
I Love You...
I Need You...
Thou my world may fall...
I'll nvr let u go...
My Saviour...
My closest Friend...
I Will Worship You...
Until The Very End...
Today, i went to church late, haiz... emergency!!! Ignatius' maplestory acc got hacked, his mom got so worried and sms me to help save his acc...
* Samuel the maplestory account emergency saver comes in*
After a grueling 10 mins.... Samuel: Certified 12.50 p.m
Sry Aunt Joanne i tried my best its gone i know it, guess what? I could share my acc wif Ignatius, lvl 64 spearman wah, anyway I have given up on maple le ma haha...
Rushed to church wah today hall 9 closed haha got to go straight in from another door, Chris was singing on stage today, I learnt that God made us diff, there could be no one in the world same like us...We were made for diff purposes... Ugly or good-looking, we all have a purpose, well to describe simply our face is the cluster above our necks lol, Pastor John said this haha...^^
Pastor YC gathered his whole group today, we gathered and we were to pray for each other, 6 names that we have in mind and prayed for them to come to church, I juz feel so hopeless, so helpless, maybe b4 I ask ppl down yea I have to have a better relationship wif them, earn their trust and muz learn to communicate better... I can see Jimmy growing, he is able to communicate wif ppl well, earn their trust and have a good relationship wif them, God I really wish u could gif me the strength and power to be able to do that, I truely from the bottom of my heart hope to see miracles in my friends' lives and wanna spread your love through me... Nicholas did affirmed me that I could do that.... Was quite happy someone did support me and advise me...^^
After that we rushed down to parkway parade to gif Pastor Eugene a surprise elated bday, wah he is half a century old... Sounds very old hor haha=p Golden Age muahahah...^^ and we celebrated Jun Wei didi's bday oso haha...^^
After that we wanna actually see Chris off to Shanghai with his parents, but it was quite late so Leonard see him off and we went home... Right now he most probably is on the plane, Bon Voyage Chris... hope to see you back soon^^
Tmr morning 4am Joy, Annabel, Michelle and a few more are heading to Hong Kong, Bon Voyage too, come back soon^^ When they come back i think need to hire a few taxis =P Shop eat Shop eat, got alot of things de haha
Retreat is this friday and saturday, anyone interested to go down and know more about what we are doing and the rest of the guys and girls do drop me a sms ^^ well its time for gdbye... i hate gdbyes... but i have to... sooo LAME haha anyway tata sayonara bye =D
CRUCIFIED at 12:20 AM
A day out with New Friends^^
Wow today seemed like a very interesting day haha, today we went to planet crush juz to be disappointed, miscommunication, cannot play games, ARGHHH!!!!! NOOOOOO!!!!! Still, cell carried on, and then Me and Jimmy went shopping with Shawn at orchard road, Rachael and her bf Chris came too^^ Now I know how shopping is like =P, patience is a virtue~.~'''
Then we went to Bugis and met Shawn's dear at Seiyu, then Dylan,Yuen Ting and QQ Jie came haha, so fun, had ice cream at Swensons (Shawn's treat Muahaha) then we went to more shopping haha, Dylan, Shawn, Winnie and QQ Jie went to dinner at the Steamboat restaurant opp. Shaw Tower =D
Not hungry, Me, Jimmy and Yuen Ting went to Shaw Tower's Coffee Bean and sat down to drink tea and chat hehe, then feeling bored, we went to LAN to play DoTA, wah guess what 2 v 1, well all 3 of us had turns to solo the other 2, mine was the worst lol, tio trashed, surprisingly Yuen Ting is very good in DoTA, don't siao siao, Singapore's gaming girls are on the rise now, they are getting better than the guys haha, really had alot of fun today going out and having fun wif them
I pray that God will watch upon them and bless them, may we become best friends in time to come. Amen =P
CRUCIFIED at 12:38 AM
Addicted....
Haiz, this is for yesterday's blog, sianz, the blog server was doing maintenance.
Yesterday was quite a fun and fulfiling day, went to the basketball court near Jun Kai's home and played bball there, wah rusty liao le haha, muz train harder le, the objective of yesterday was to go gym and workout... YES, ME GOING GYM!!!!
Well at around 6pm, we left for the gym in Bukit Gombak wif Jun Yang, Jun Kai's bro, when we reached there i was a lil uncomfortable lol, small gym wif so many ppl in there ~.~'''
When we entered we got ourselves a locker, and then took out our towels and we went training... The brothers went to the treadmill first, i did not like running on that so i went to this machine where u sort of like glide, i asked the auntie to help me set the settings for the machine to work and gues what... she set for me the highest resistance, which means I have to use more strength to glide the thing... After 10 mins on the thing i started to feel the stress on my leg muscle, man that felt awesome, i carried on for another 10mins.
Those 2 ran finish on the treadmill like say 15mins earlier than i left the gliding machine and were off to do some crunches and weight training, I took a 5kg weight(2.5kg on each side) and started to train my arm muscles... Overall we trained for like 1 and 1/2 hours haha, the training sure was nice lor and i would really wanna go back again to train more, Be sure to see a NEW me soon muahahaha.
CRUCIFIED at 7:18 AM
Over The Hedge
Hammy the squirel: But... I like that cookie
Ahh haha, today went to watch Over the Hedge wif Chris, Qing Tian, Leonard, Guo Wei and my friend Jun Kai, and a few others, will get to know them better soon haha, ooh hah lala, the show was quite farnie la, my favourite character is the fast and hyperactive squirrel, Hammy the Squirrel. Got one part very nice lol, imagine a hyperactive and fast person + caffeine = More hyperactive.
Hammy the Squirrel + Caffeine = Disaster, he becomes so hyperactive and so fast that the world stops revolving, that is how fast he was after he had a drink with caffeine, and he turned the traps against the humans themselves haha
Nth really much happened today, but i do know something, CHIONG HOMEWORK ARGHHHH!!!!!!!
CRUCIFIED at 9:59 PM
Rock my soul
its 1.30 a.m now... kaka... yawnzzz
A few hours back, i was still at marine parade de FCBC church building, wah today youth camp part 2, spirit there so high, when singing that time, i could really hear those soft spoken girls and punk guys really sing out loud with gusto, muahaha kaka... prayer session today went quite well, Chris prayed for me and i collapse onto the ground as the Holy Spirit overwhelms me, wanted that feeling to last for eternity...
After that went everyone was about to go home, wah i rush like siao, get everyone's hp no., well Lord I hope that u will bless these brothers, sisters of mine whom I juz knew this 2 days, Shawn, Keith, Benjamin, Cheryl, Alvin, Cai Yun, Frans, David, Jarrell, Joel, Li Rong, Rachel, Valarie and oh ya the small boi boi, Martin...
CRUCIFIED at 1:27 AM
Moving by Faith...
I walk by faith...
Each step by faith...
I put my trust in you...
At last, today is the last day of the semester, holiday coming le, but still got e-learning week lehz... Boh bian arh... haha lol, its juz that erm I have been thinking of many things to do haha, Today i asked Jenn if she could go and attend church service and she said she could't =(... But still today i learnt something at the youth camp, be faithful, trust in the Lord, last until the very end, dun gif up, pray and u shall recieve muahaha....
Today at the youth camp was quite fun =D We did some activities, i like the one that we have to memorise John 3:16 - 3:22 from the bible, i was assigned John 3:18 together with Shawn... well it went like this
John 3:18
Whoever believes in God is not comdemned...
But whoever does not believe stands comdemned already,
Because he has not believed in the name of
God's one and only Son
well after that we went for dinner... wah no money sia, bought a small plate of chicken rice =P Then we went back to FCBC Touch Centre at Marine Parade to rest...
Pretty soon after that, we started our prayer and praises session, woah, u could really feel the spirit so high sia, everyone !!! Then the prayer session started.... All i could say about it was fantastic, something amazing happened =D
When Chris prayed for me, I could feel the Holy Spirit descending upon me... my legs were wobbly, body trembling... I tried to resist for awhile.... in the end.... i juz gave in and collapse onto the floor, the feeling was so great i was overwhelmed...
Still praying and hoping to be able to bring a few friends to the miracle catch... I hope that God would guide and help me in the process =D
CRUCIFIED at 11:56 PM
Misunderstandings....
2 projects down... 4 more to go... will I survive the hardship ahead of me?
OF COS I will l ^^, haha, trying my best to be organised and planning ahead of things, have given me a great sense of accomplishment =D Today during IDEAs project presentation, i was so relieved everything went well, the teacher even said he liked how I did the digital camera functions using Visual Basic, woah that VB work done was way above my level, its becos i tried my best to read much ahead of the lessons bah.
Anyway, today when i was looking at my friend, Jun Kai's blog, I was confused... someone went to disturb his blog and i told the person off, but guess what he said he found out that the mystery guy and my IP were the same, I was at a loss then, but hey it was not me, I'll think I will try my best to clarify things bah, make both parties feel better, yea =X
I really cant wait for tommorrow to come lol, tmr got youth camp 2-3 june, well i can expect it to be fun, cos it is organised by CHRIS FUN!!! Lol, its juz that whenever im wif my church brothers and sisters i feel well... glad ^^, usually its praying, singing hillsongs, socialising =P and having fun doing it together, well I do expect it to be a meaningful event for me too, as for the 3 names, praying for them and trying my best to comunicate wif them, hey i gonna earn their trust right?
Well....Well.....Welll..... thats all for today ^^
CRUCIFIED at 2:42 PM
Why does it have to be that way.......
Haiz, today has really been a stressful day. ARGHHHH!!!!!!!
Got VB project to rush out, IDEAs project,COS project, CRS homework,IDEAs innovation project, WHY ALL SO SUDDEN DE!?!?!?!?!
hehehe, still im gonna rush it out with best quality done, GOD IS WITH ME!!!, Yes so are my friends supporting me... For IDEAs project, i ame out with my design of the digital camera, can play movie and song and capture pics (WOOT, i added in Final Fantasy 7 :Advent Children as movie and Cao Cao by JJ as the music and of all BoA's cutest pic, eat flower that one) Sia la, so proud of myself and i feel its well done cos i used VB to do it programming lehz... to do something like flash with Visual Basic, haha so happy ^^
Ahhhh, VB project during the holidays de, im teaming up with Jenn to do the Games Development using VB... I know that both of us would work hard and do well in making the best project ever possible in the history of SP!!! Jenn, Kampateh! We can do it, lalala lololol, i guess i shouldn't pontank sch le, very bad, i feel the importance of not attending classes cos i cant catch up, but still im trying my best to catch up by studying at home....
Im planning to buy a notebook, Yep, a good one, especially for games and work, come to think of buying it, my birthday is coming soon^^ My grandparents may give me a big ang pao, song arh, I wanna buy a digicam too^^ I developed a liking to taking pictures with friends as pictures taken are precious memories too...
Congratz to Kai for trying his best to find eternal happiness, even thou many things may happen along during the process, dun gif up and do ur best!!
Eh? lol im sounding more positive le haha, maybe bah maybe^^
Praying everyday, the 3 names i have in mind, hoping upon a wish that they would come, joining the family, having more spiritual brothers and sisters, having more happy and fun memories together.....
Oh ya lastly, anyone interested in Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicles comic, the Anime is out
Living my life the path God has set.... BLESS YOU ALL!!! ^^
CRUCIFIED at 11:22 AM
Lost and Found : Finding myself......
I'm searching for your heart.....
You hold my life in your hands.....
Drawing me closer to you.....
I feel your power renew.....
Nothing compares to this place.....
Where i can see you face to face.....
I worship you in spirit and in truth.....
Its been a long time since i posted hehe, well I've been doing some thinking about myself and people around me again... I am really stressed at the way some people talk and interact with me haha, bo bian, some ppl are so stuck up, I really can't afford to let loose of myself and let my old self revive... lol, let behind the violent and vulgar past and carry on with my new life, I've really changed alot since then, i used to beat people up but now yea... I learn to care and show concern to those precious to me...
Today in church was a very memorable one... haha, first time i hear Pastor Lawrence Khong preach about the Word, oh man, i could feel the excitement, the fire burning deep within him when he preached about the Sermon... Praise Lord, haha GOD BLESS ME, ENLARGE MY TERRITORY
After service, our group gathered together.... Chris asked all of us to give 3 names of non-christian friends that we have to try our best to bring them to church for them to know more about God and believe in him, so i summited teh names lor haha, they are.... Hong yao, Jenn and Daphne... i would really want this 3 classmates and frens of mine to join the family so that we could really get closer to each other thru faith...
I hope that if anyone of you is interested in going to church and know more about God, plz contact me or add me in msn blitzace_tidus89@hotmail.com ... thx
CRUCIFIED at 10:59 PM
Lost and Found....
hi there... this is yesterday's post, haha came back home and sleep straightaway, dead tired haha...
I know that you’re hiding things Using gentle words to shelter me Your words were like a dream But dreams could never fool me Not that easily I acted so distant then Didn’t say goodbye before you left But I was listening You fight your battles far from me Far too easily Save your tears cause I'll finally come back I can hear that you whispered as you walked through that door But still I swore to hide the pain when I turn back the pages Shouting might have been the answer What if I cried my eyes out and begged you not to depart But now I’m not afraid to say what's in my heart Cause a thousand words
Call out through the ages They’ll fly to you Even though I can’t see I know they’re reaching you Suspended on silver wings Oh a thousand words One thousand embraces Will cradle you Making all of your worries dancing far away They’ll hold you forever For a thousand words(a thousand words) had never been spoken(ohhhh) Will fly to you They’ll carry you home(carry you home) And back into my arms Suspended on silver wings(on silver wings) And a thousand words(ohhh) Call out through the ages(call through the ages) Will cradle you(ohh ya) Turning all of the lonely years into lonely days(lonely days) They’ll hold you forever Ohhhhh A thousand words
This song is the theme song for Final Fantasy X-2, always nvr fail to mesmerise me, sung by Jade of SweetBox, Jap version sung by koda kumi
Well, this song always brings back my thoughts of a very romantic relationship haha....
But still, im gonna work hard for it, im not finding for a girlfriend, but a wife haha....
Well today... church service sure went pretty well i tried my very best to understand the sermon... paid 30$ for the encounter camp which i am going this july wif Jonathan and company haha, foood.... talking about food today i bought a couple of cheesedogs and guess what.... Keelin dropped my food on the floor.... didnt want to tell him off as i was in a good mood and everyone was.... but next time..... muahhahahahah * the devil within arises*
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! well cannot let the satan take over me..... but still i have to tell him not to do it again as it was not kind to do it.....
Well after that, me, Yilong and Jimmy played Bang! it sure was a fun and fast game though, it was still early then (to go home that is ) i went to Queenstown stadium de LAN shop to play, (im an old timer there haha, used to go there everyday, was known there as Guardian by everyone as it is my nick used in CS), went there played dota and other games wif a few frens which are always there and then at around 8.00 pm Jimmy came walking in haha, he cannot play cos bo bian he saving money... After gaming, me, Jimmy and Shawn were going to sit down to talk , but end up walking our seperate ways home... Well Bless God for that wonderful day haha
CRUCIFIED at 3:37 PM
Be Fearful of the Lord.... Believe and Obey Him......
hola ppl, today was a very very nice day
hmmm.... i went for a card games session at planetcrush, BANG!.... haha fun card game, then i went for open cell :D ... actually i was going for NDP training but i tot to myself hmmm...... i dun have much time for it and im too lazy to go lol, so i withdrew from all the training ( so sad... for them la haha) Well im more free now haha....
Open cell today was quite interesting, we shared our struggles this week and we tried finding solutions for them.... Mua Favourite Time muahahhaha Song Time!!!! Nono not barney and frens, but praises for God
Better is one day in your courts.....
Better is one day in your house.....
Better is one day in your courts.....
Than thousands elsewhere.....
Then we went to hawker centre near Annabel's home =P , and i noticed something when i was there.... Singapore's ambulance is very efficient now lolx, an old lady fainted or got a heart attack and summoned an ambulance to come save her ( God, plz let this old lady get through this hard time) well.... back to having dinner, woah ppl, the fish and chips at bukit merah view power sia, 5$ the plate extra large portion, haha cannot eat finish too full......
But then...... something disturbing and obscene happened....... the table infront of us were seated a boy and girl younger than me in age....... Well..... they started out by eating dessert together..... but after that..... more dessert??? lolx no way.... first was a hug (oh man so sweeeet...BUT NO) they did something more obscene and should be done in private.... they were kissing like mad there, come on la.... this is a hawker centre so public lor..... next thing was the most indecent thing...... the boy shuff his face at the girl's chest? ( GET A ROOM PLZ!!!!) Come on this is no place for free show.......
Well over wif that haha, Me, Annabel, Chris, Nick and Joy, we went to parklane there de mind cafe (been there many times le), play many board and card games... funny sia haha so fun especially BANG! lol.... we went mind cafe becos we couldn't book tickets for The Da Vinci Code at Plaza Singapura.... haiz..... but still we all had fun..... Twinkle of an eye... Opps 12.15a.m le... wah all rush home... Me and Annabel took the same bus home lolx... I alighted first and said tata sayonara goodbye cya adios amigos (my way of goodbye) =P
Overall things had been quite interesting today haha, well i hope u ppl are alrite too and Best Of Everything.... For BoA fans out there, this gif is a pretty cute one
CRUCIFIED at 1:38 AM
Hi there... Come to think of Mother's Day a week or 2 ago... I find it very interesting that how everyone was planning what to present to their moms or spiritual moms a surprise or present haha, well i was amazed to see people do special things for their moms to make them happy haha, heres a couple of pics haha
Surprising Aunna Wif candles forming a heart shape and mom word haha... so touching =D
This is a Group Pic taken in church, guess what are the naruto handsign we are doing? ...... THOUSAND YEARS OF PAIN that is......
Nth much happened today, was juz thinking about what to do wif my life and how to improve myself, i really want my story juz to be like that of a final fantasy story... haha i expect too much eh? Well, final fantasy game series stories usually start out wif the hero unexpectedly meets the heroine and they go thru all sorts of trouble wif an evil villan and will defeat him along wif the help of their frens and there will be many loving and touching experiences the hero and heroine goes through on their journey to save their loved ones...... well thats what i really wish and hope for and it would happen in my life oneday.... someday.... , well nth can happen much if i sit here all day long and ponder about these things eh?
Well well i think i should go improve myself^^ hehe, maybe i too big size le (fat fat), cut down weight and i would look much much nicer, but no motivation how lehz? haha im gonna find a way to motivate myself, i only motivate myself through friends and well... Gaming!!!!!! haha guess i should do 100 sit ups or push ups after one game, too much too much lolx. Well nth much really happened today, so I'll juz go ponder about it still and see what can i do^^
Well this is all for today, tata sayonara everyone and GOD BLESS!!! ^^
CRUCIFIED at 11:43 PM
Dreamers, Movers & Shakers
I want to be a history maker. (I want to be a history maker.) I want to be a world shaker. (I want to be a world shaker.) To be a pen on history's pages, (To be a pen on history's pages,) Faithful to the end of the ages. (Faithful to the end of the ages.)
Wah sounds very chim hor? Well its not if u try to understand it, well i'll explain bah haha
Dreamers - who dream God's dreams
Movers - who excel to strive for God's perfection
Shakers - who last the distance to make an impact
understand? If not too bad lor =P...
well im here today on my 2nd post, paiseh past few days nvr post, but i'll try my best to do it!!!
Today is a fairly interesting day, nth much in sch thou, but after sch, Me, Ivan and company go play pool haha. It was hilarious how sore losers act, saying the opponent was lucky and stuff, well its not heng suay which judge the winner, its teh skillz ^^ , yea teh skillz.
Ahh and dear people, i will be organising an event during June at sentosa or planetcrush try la try la, well its b4 my birthday and b4 the miracle catch!!! Excited!?! Well for details, ask me in MSN, alrite hor? About Blogskin, I'm trying it out and hope it looks great, thx to Tracy for guiding me, Ah Bel u too hehe^^
haiz sianz tonite bo bian have to rush out homework as usual haha, well thats it for today i suppose, take care everyone^^ and God Bless Ya All =D
CRUCIFIED at 6:37 PM
Feeling Good Today
Alo there^^, this is samuel here and im starting my blog today...
Well here goes, Today at cell group session, we went to planetcrush at Bukit Merah to play some games, woah it was kinda early to be there for a games session but still... *fingers itching*
Gonna pawn some people, it was fun there and I learn something today, give people a chance to strike back rather than me keep killing them, this way everyone could have fun... So after that, i had my lunch at KFC (soooo oily) haha but still i ordered a burger set meal =P... After that filling lunch, we went for our prayer session, it was really good, sang hillsongs, prayed and we left...
Me, Nicholas, Hui mun, Yilong and Leonard took a bus down to Chris' house to celebrate Saysern's friend's birthday,Bob's birthday (kinda out of the way friend) while Chris fetched Jimmy,Saysern, Bob and Saysern's other friend down to his house... Well for the girls which was Joy's group, im curious where ya all went after your cell group session =D
We reached there earlier than them (haha so slow sia they all), then for dinner we had pizza and campbell soup (great combination eh) ^^ ? Oh well... after that we went to watch a few episodes of naruto and a movie called The Brothers Grimm, was not scaree at all, and guess what... the birthday cake for Bob was Brownies, very chewy ones, nice chocolatey chewy ones haha, so then we all went home after that muahahaha, well it sure was a fun and exciting day bah... ^^
CRUCIFIED at 10:02 PM
